Haven’t posted for years but big boy is now almost 20 and has now spoken about me finding out about him meeting BM. I know she will want to do this so am sure it will at some point take place. I’m happy for him to do this ,BM life if very different from when he was born I know it is not a chaotic life style anymore plus she has other children that were able to stay with her.
Im scared though and selfishly for me ?, I’m scared but not sure about what exactly- about him seeing her as mum , him having a fantastic relationship with her( and that makes me feel so bad as of course that is what he would want so I should be pleased), about losing the family we have!!
Of course I would never say this to him and he finds it easy to talk to me about it which I wouldn’t want to change but I do feel a sadness.
Not looking for answers but just needed to say How I am feeling.